Security Deposit

Many of us experienced that first apartment. We felt like we were on our own and able to really be a grown-up. We were adults. But rewind a bit...before we could move into that space, we had to pay a security deposit. That deposit was a few hundred dollars in addition to our first month's rent. The purpose of this deposit was to cover any potential damages the apartment may sustain while we reside within. If no damages are found and the space is left in the condition in which it was rented to us, when we move on to bigger and better living spaces, they give us that deposit back.

No apartment ever asks potential tenants for an "insecurity deposit" do they? Of course not! That just sounds ridiculous! But so many of us have so many insecurities! We are insecure about who we are and what we've done and where we are in life. We don't feel pretty enough or skinny enough or smart enough or rich enough or strong enough. Just as we do our phones and purses, we carry the burden of self-doubt daily. Truth be told, we are much quicker to leave the first two at home than the latter. On a good day, we turn around to grab the phone or the purse, yet never think to drop off that bag full of our insecurities.

It's interesting though. The word security means "to be kept safe". The word deposit means to "pay before". Uh oh...MESSAGE! As children of the Most High, He sent His son to pay our debts before us so that we may be kept safe in Him. So why are we insecure? Why do we doubt ourselves if we know that the security deposit over our lives has been paid? I'll tell you why. Because to "know" and to "believe" are two totally different things.

Knowledge is competence. On the other hand, belief is inexplicable and unwavering. If we believe that He paid it all, then we have to be secure in who we are. Everything we are, we are in Him. Because of this, our insecurities are invalid. I know there's no magic wand that we can wave to make our feelings of insecurity and self-doubt go away, but we can be honest enough with ourselves to know that in His eyes, they might be a little bit ridiculous. It's hard to stay insecure when your confidence is found in the maker of all things in Heaven and on earth.

And the cool thing about our security deposit is that it's not refundable on the condition that we stay the same. As a matter of fact, it's ideal that we are not left in the same condition, but that we be transformed by a renewing of our minds and our spirits. So, on those days that we feel sub-par and lowly, like we aren't good enough or don't deserve better, just remember that you are safe in Him and that HE is who makes you good enough. Now just like Viola Davis in The Help, look at yourself in the mirror and say, "I am smart. I am kind, And I am important." Or maybe something more like, "Thank you God for making me who I am and loving me this way. Help me to do the same." Yeah...maybe more like the second one lol. And be sure to keep saying until you go beyond knowing and actually start to believe it! Be Blessed. XOXO